princessnirvana

DETESTe

i hate for being me when im in blues.i hate people who r not determine to get something that they know they can get the 'thing' Bcox its already infront of them and the just let the time run for it.y?the chances ,the window is open for u..

so much loves and hates....

so much hates to reveals out..not fussy but irritated with the 'things' that annoying me when im facing with that

1) deteste when see 'tanda harga' kat tapak kasut.. oh MY GOD! plzla.. plz cabut tande harga tu..menyampah giler wey!berpinau mata..

2) deteste when have to ironning..hahaha..sbb my teratak opah's rule.. mengosok adelah man's work..because they are not intense to do other than that work...yeah..still.

3) deteste to read story book...inikan plak buku study!!kahkaha..what to do..life is a learning process..

4) deteste when i have to againts myself!! that's the thing yg aku takle setel dr dulu... how to solve it?i dont want to do something taht i dont like..even i refused for so many time but have to faced it!y?hurt!

5)deteste curry.plz God i hate curry.

6)deteste people who like to underestimate other people.u think ur good enuff?

7)deteste keje yg aku buat skang nih.. even gaji alhamdulillah.jiwa is not there.i dont like to come to work just having fun with IT.maybe becouse im more to the praktikal person.PLZ ALMIGHTY..

8)deteste people who like to make a fools of other people not matter invoving heart feeling or not.dont u dare to do that..dont u eva feel sory if its not from ur deepest hard feeling.people dont look at ur empathy.

9) deteste FAKER!get rid of my life! PLZ ALMIGHTY ALLAH...let these kind of peoples blah from  my life,gone with wind and fly peaceful.enuf..nice to knue u but u just a season that i have to wipe out from my life.plz go...find people who relates to u compared to the people who so naive like me.y u have to go and c some1 like me?im not messing u.u the 1 who mess every1's life..im not chasing u..u d 1 who chase after me..its dat counted as my fault?

9) deteste driving..yeah i'm.wat eva

10) deteste indon's freak..sorry..im not into indon's sinetron ..n inikan plak lagu...support ur local scene!!tp kalo tiket free - pigi gak..enjoice the music

11)deteste people who keep asking me the crap questions that i cant answered.it all UP there!ITS already written..MY LORD did it well.HE choose the BEST FOR every1.keep praying n keep gaining ,i guess..hehe.i believe that & believe the faith.

11)deteste CRYING!it shows me how failed i'm. abort the 'hati kering' or wat eva..its not being daredevil as long as  u know wat ur doin'.that's the last thing i will do..believed me..i hate crying.i hate sobbing and for sure i hate sober.

and again..im hate myself when im in blues...ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. ramadhan kali nih cpat btul masanye.. alhamdulillah...

cuma.. my bad cough dtg balik n till now since a month ago tak sembuh2 lagik...minggu ke2 ramadhan my phone lost!i lost all the contact numbers..i lost all the importnt memories..and i lost the phone.even its cap ayam phone but i love it so much..duit dr keje hiestand tu!minggu ke 4 (which is yesterday),d 1 & only my sis that i have admitted at ampang puteri! yeah once again..ramadhan n syawal mngajar saya erti aper itu ISLAM. i Know n i believed that.He choose the BEST FOR U! and for me...slow n steady win the race..its not late at all...it just a beginning of my life.maybe a bit late for some people but atleast its moving. yeah its not late at all.becouse im just started..Im just started and walk on my own pathway.

CONTINUING LOVE..

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all o ther relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

-sometimes i also asking myself.. y i have to go n meet some1 like u?y u have to go n meet some1 like me.. u came.. then left it with or without reason..or wat purpose u came if the answer is to be hurt.-sake of dying...as much more deeper as much more hurt u can feel that.now i understand...

bydway toda.. can we also assume dis as 'mgisi masa lapang' for a season?

i dedicated this to all my friends..Thank you for being a part of my life,whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.i really mean it.. especially YOU..

RITUAL JULY BESDAY BASH!!

slamat hari tua 4 those who clb8 their
besday on THis BELOVED month!!!!
as usual.. me will wish all of u who will become tue n kerepot ..slamat hari jadi,bonne annivarsaire n happy besday to u :).

> 4th
> *huda/kemal/ bomoh!
bside my late 'pakwe' also passed away on this date..al fathihaH      

:(.smoga berada diklangan org yg beriman.amin!!

> 5th..*nana ka2

> 13th *fajriyah

> 14th *chacha

> 17th *grimlock

> who else? - up coming AIDIL...late
> 20th 's if im not mistaken..

> 310707
happy besday to...
> *saleza- take care for ur bb
> *raja faraa diana- wey biler nk blanja aku nih?
> *farin_SMC- biler nk blanja aku gak?
> *Chie...- soalan masih sama sepeti di atas..hahaha.

> 310707
> tO MY EVERDEAREST
friend/clique/mate/sis/wat else u..
> KHAIRIAH SINGKA..
- slamat becoming besday.really happy for clbrtg besday on advanced wif u YESTERDAY wif the Real4.u know WE love
u :).ader rezeki ke sabah kita next year.(dis year ndak dpt bah..unless ko follow aku g swak,mau?)


> Kepada semua di atas ..slamt meningkat umurnyer.wish all of u have a nice year,get rid of mad person n be young
> always like moi!!
CHEERS!!

to the rest who also clbrt their besday this month but didnt mentiond here..happy besday too..

P/S: RajaFaraaDiana..its sweet too.tq n UR most WELCOMED!HAHAHA..

TRIBUTE...To...

can i kol dis as tribute?..

wat is tribute? - is something that u give( in dis case..mizk,who is me )give or say to express praise ,Thanks,admiration or affection...so that 1 thing that TRIBUTE to another when its a sign of how good it is..

Im not good in word,im not good in expression ..takes time for me to express something that i really2 want to share.but i have to tell dis , i have to confess this feeling that i really happy and thanks to my ALMIGHTY ALLAH to give me such a wonderful friends..n they r wonderful and bionic woman too..haha..

from the outer side,every1 will keep asking,keep confusing how come 4 peoples with differ style, with differ perangai can b such a good friendz in need n in deed.. yes believe me..we r wat we r..neva think about others..just us..some1 who looks so extreme+some1 who looks 'SO' so-so la...natural?+some1 who looks so HYPER&aggresive?+some1 looks so gentle..

we know we neva bother about others..n sometimes it hurts when peops keep talk behind.. but wat else we can do?there so much things in dis world that we have to figured out.There are long journey that we have to going thru....which path u will choose?no matter wat u r/no matter wat u will be/no matter who u will married too/n we always said to each other that we will be glad if we will meet our soulmate that also can befriend with dis freaky friendship becouse afraiding that friendship willbe lost ..:).(been thru dis experienced,,thanks GOD..u met much more gentleman,girl!).we will be a good friend 4 eva. hope it will foreva.even... people did betting to c how long dis freaky frienndship will b last? susah juge to keep it sustain..hehe.bgs jugak biler friendship itu berkembang dr 2 org -3-6 org etc.

admitted,we neva in fight...no harm,kecik ati?so-so maybe... n we did tell each others about that if we did...but because these 4 peops got high volume n high pitch so that they neva know if 1 of us got any hard feeling towards each others if they didnt tell..because every1 being so honest.neva hiding the feelings.wey aku kecik ati ngn ko tau!!hehehe...i really miss u girls..we also can tegur direct too..

how we can be so close apart? r we have sooo much good in common? r we have a good magnetic in YingYang zone?or r we have an ideal horoscope towards each others? - yeah... we have 'soo' much good in commons but in different ways..in every1 style act.

not every1 of us have same interesting except -mengenakan org...kana,piong...hehe.. yeah.. we have differents hobbies.. oh my god. now i noticed.outdoor n camping, only tet & 1 did that...when time for taekwondo..only me & amie did that, when time DR.Z.... only me & noma will escaped the class and let amie to jot down all the notes.hahaha..we shared.yup we shared.sooner or later..the unknown sure will reveal... looking back YESTERDAY.. make us realized that its been 8 years for us to know each others..shared the memories..love n hate..breakup?depressed?hurt?happiness?sadness?or even death?

when riding in a car together.. looking each others.. dr sebusuk2nyer.. dr dulu yg sorg nih sibuk dengan NIKE x abis2..yg sorang tak abis2 dengan bangle silver, yg sorang tak abis2 dengan tudung la.. n yg sorang tu mengikut jerla.. maklumla kak long.. really aspired!its too early, i knew that..there r so much achievement we have to excell but for the time being we SHOULD proud with ourself for being the real us.THE TRUTH.

i still feel happy for yesterday when 4 of us gathered like hell..hehe..btul2 tak keje..and thank GOD... wkt semua org bz keje .. kiter bz buat keje lain.. n i just wanna shared this happy feeling.kebetulan...tet+amie+noma.. tq for being such a good friend to me..i know im an out loud notty girl..its just me :p.

so all the best 2 all of u no matter where u r.. just enjoy ur life..neva bother about others if Others hanye menyesakkan...:). we happy for wat u choose..as long as u happy to do that ..n im really happy because i shared my Jenny wif u..HOPE Jenny THE Red happy wif u too.. :).

R.E.D.H.A- Rahsia kurniaan ALLAH

qada & qadar yg ditentukan telah di tulish oleh ALLah di loh mahfuz..tiada sesaper yg mampu mngubahnya Kecuali dgn iziN ALLAH!apabila pemahaman ni ujud dlm pemikiran kite,maka segala penyesalan,segala tekanan dan rasa kurang diri akan hilang krn ALLAH tu maha mengetahui n berkuasa dalam segalanye...

dlm sebuah hadis dinyatakan bhw KETENTUAN ALLAH itu tidak boleh diubah kecuali dengan DOA.DOA = PERMOHONAN hamba kepada ALLAH swt.Allah menyuruh setiap manusia berdoa kepadanya.ALLAH memberi janji yg ia akan memperkenankan setiap doa.kiter mmg takut berdoa..takut tak dimakbulkan..takut menjadi songsang..terlalu byk nk diuraikan...takut tak reda..tapi..kiter kena keep berdoa!

samada doa itu makbul cepat @ lambat...samada diberi di dunia @ di akhirat..kemakbulan doa itu bergantung juga kpd 'keakrban' pendoa dengan ALLAH.smkin akrab,makin mudahlah doa itu diperkenankan kepada ALLAH. doa aku?akrab ker aku?

sometimes ALLAH turunkan qada n qadar kpd seseorang tu merupakan BALA..kematian org yg dikasihi,fakir,penyakit..like 1 keratan did i baca...SESUNGUHNYA malaikat JIBRIL tu tugasnya utk menunaikan hajat manusia..bila org kafir berdoa,mohon pada ALLAH..ALLAH perintahkan supaya malaikat JIBRIL SEGERA tunaikan hajatnyer krn Allah xmau /benci mendengar rintihan nyer.. tu sbb kiter slalu wonder.Y org kafir nih.. mewahjer idopnye..snng jer jln idopnyer.flow idup takde masalahpun..

tapi apabile org yg beriman memohon kpd ALLAH,mrintih penyakit yg dihidapi,masalah yg di hadapi dan sbgnye..ALLAH SWT memerintahkan malaikat JIBRil agar menahan JGN diberi apa yg dipohon,jgn dilaksankan apa yg dirintih..kerana ALLAH TAALA sgt rindu utk mendengar segla doa @rintihan yg ikhlas dan sepenuh hati..dlm waktu ni..redha ,tawakal,ikhlas,IMAN penting utk menguatkan lagi ketakwaan hamba kepada Allah supaya hatinyer kekal/tetap.

if rintihan tu diberi,penyakit diubati,fakir mjadi kaya,hamba akan cpat melupakan penciptanyer..lupakan TUHANnya.N apabila tiba waktunyer sudah tentu ALLAH akan memakbulkan doa-doa itu/permohonan itu dlm keadaan takwa dan akhirnyer insya-allah trus ke syurga Allah..

SESunguhnye Allah swt mahukan setiap hamba itu ader RASE REDHA..(REDHAke aku?-msh lagik mencari keredhaan mu ya ALLAH)apabila sesuatu QADA & QADAR itu berlaku pada seseorg..mungkin apa yg kite tak sukai itu sbnarnyer lebih baik..namun RAHSIA qada & qadar tu mmg tak mudah difahami oleh manusia.setiap qada&qadar itu mpunyai rahsia yg tersendiri..

~dr 1 artikel~

still searching for keredhaan&keberkatan ALLAH

REDHA IBU BAPA,REDHA ALLAH!!

How to SAVE ur life?

welcome to 3003.welcome to the nu steps that u looking forward too.hmm.. lifes much more challenging now.just face it!feel differ when the age turns up...hehe.byk nyer aim,target n c how the planning will goin' tru.. how u want to survive?how u want save ur life?u cant run from it..C.past 2 months my ayahanda got his love from almighty ALLAH.b4 this happnd to him,i did read about 1 case..similar with his case.. how u want to save ur life.. in 1 phase,while ur still in good living ur breathing suddenly stoppng and at that time ur mind or ur heart will control ur guts.which 1 u should follow?

if u wanna live.. u have to fight for it!ur mindcontrol, ur mental strength.. if not... it will slowly flowing down n down n down....n death...that happend to him.. n he chosed to life.. here he is..still with us..thanks ALLAH. mcm jugak my old kluang friend had told me about his friend who coma after accident.. masa coma he dreamed about 1 chaya that he should follow to wake up or he afraid to face it..2 bln koma..finally dat guy bgn sedar diri.. insap? hanyer org yg tertentu je dpt rase bende 2 camni.. case yg kyrie baca tu.. lemas kat pulau..n takut to face up sbb takde keberanian in his life.. but then actually everything about psycology..either u brave enuff or u just want to chicken out.

i still wanna life..n im chosed to idop since i was in my mummy's womb eventhou i was deliverd after 9 months and almost 10 weeks.im not degil..:). it must be hard for my mummy who deliverd me ..terpaksa used forsep lak tu..ms prgnt stay @hospital.msk air..o mai GOD.BCOX OF i did promised to 'HIM' that i will be nicer to every1..HE give me an air to breath in &out n He gives me an good opportunity to enjoy my life.so here im now.. n i should save n survive my life in wat eva happn.

so just let HIM know that u know best,cause after all u do know best. just dont eva forget n fed up to pray to ALLAH.. he hears You.trust me...thankz ALLAH kyrie husni still alive!

merci beaucoup pour le annivarsaire texte,adiah.happy for that friends

w.h.o knew?

I took your words and I believed
In everything you said to me
Yah huh that's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
'Cause they're all wrong
I know better
'Cause you said forever
And ever... who knew?

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
I wish I could, still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever... who knew?

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we, until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened?

~saya x buleh tido ini malam~

aDAKAh ANDA iMNSOMNIA?? YES I AM!!

WATa GOOD info that i got is Insomnia in fact, is a common symptom of hormonal imbalance. Think for more than 100.. yes mmg i got probs with hormonal imbalance...hmm too byk..y huh??kompius again?
imnsomnia ni dealing with difficulty of sleeping..samaada dah tido,pastu bgn balik,tak tido2 mlm like me.. or akan cover blk wkt weekend ker..@ mcm2 sypmtom.. as i remembered.. my sleeping difficulty nih since kecik n zmn skolah lg.sampai lanih pon still got probs. n the way i recoverd pun btul2 bls dendam ..weekendla..masa skolah di muadzam shah yg permai tu..hehe i used to b penglipur lara bcox of this prob!

if u can refer to any web mengenai imnsomnia problems nih..rata2 akan kata pasal berubahan hormon dr satu zaman ke zaman yg lebih mature.Known as perimenopause.. let me tell u wats de meaning of that.. PERIMENOPAUSE nih mcm berubahan hormon dlm jangka masa yg tertentu..kire dr perubahan umor mungkin mengalami ms 10-15 thn.and it depends on the individual..yelah sbb kadar imunisasi manusia berbeza antara satu sama lain.memang imnsomnia nh buleh effect kiter punyer reputation..sbb gangggu kiter punyer kredibility scr tak langsung. ingt lagik zmn sekolah dulu..kalo tak tidur slagi x pukul 3 /4 tu bukan kyriela.. pelik gak .. i did nuthing but just enjoying mlm..haha..masa kat bangi pun sama gak!

thats y la me yg cannt sleep nih juga terpaksa mencari alternatif untuk buat sng tido...sampai mcm2 citer kat astro tu tgk..sampaikan ke football match pun boleh layan..haha..sgt kronik..yeah i do like sport.beside kalo org lain sng nak tido kalo pnat..but then me.. kalo pnat lagik susah tido.. n takes time for me ..kdg2 bergelap smata nk tido..tak berjaya jugakk...org lps training taekwondo sng gile nk tido,kyrie lps training excited giler la plak!n terpaksa jugak pakai aroma terapi LAVENDER.. SEMATA untuk tido dgn sng dan easy ..dan yg penting mendapat tido yg kualiti..tidur delta.tringat zaman jadi roomate ngn ijat wkt die anak dara lagik..hehe.

saje nk citer,last 2 weeks i did something stupid yg neva buatb4nih..beberapa bende yg xdijangka happened to me..to be or not to be..or just let it  be?as my mummy said,juz left it,but i still want to be with it..sorry mum..i neva argue wat my mummy's said but for this, i'm struggling wif myself...WEhave2try.just wanna c how persist im..sbb after operate nih,pickup sloww sgt.mcm pakai kancil plak..(ops sory yer saper2 yg pakai kancil)hehehe.

aritu  amik emergency onleave,saje suka2..kelakarnyer myboss nk bukti kalo tak,my cuti tak relief..yo2 la pikir camne...tibe2 my teammate bg idea,kewl gak idea tu..so that time im in hurried went to puduraya..mak oit lama tul x g pdraya..beli tiket ke tanjung malim..lawak2.thats the place yg plg murah tiketnyer i guess..abis ijat bini zuhai i kol.nasib baik ader ijat.n it was the kewlest thing i did so far for this year..hahhaha..yeala kalo x,pehal plk nk g puduraya,siap nk beli tiket..mcm ader kg..kg cheras baru aderla..

frankly,from deep inside of me... i really wanna c all my friends.my smtms's friends...ramai yg dah kawin,dah ader family+anak..gud to hear that..my cheras's friends pun sama.n my uni's friends..excited gile..tp im so bz.sabtu pun keje.shift plak tu.peh tu,lani demam la plak.. ampeh..i juzt met 2 of my bros..thanks for coming all the way from jauh.it was sweet even sgt kjap.hope feel free to c me again..they was there when i was tercampak dlm group robot dulu.muahaha..

juz wanna share,

' without emotion,man would be nuthing but a biological computer.LOVE,Joy,sorrow,fear,apprehension,anger,satisfaction&discontent provide the meaning of human existence'

p/s:-man refer to human.ms tgh kemas tadi i saw this word yg i kept for long time ago..n i was toink!i used to feel no emotion!budak a003 slalu kata camtu,quite lama..d answered..i was lost..so rugi.sgt rugi.so do hargai ur life ..gud nite,sweet dreams!!

A LOT LIKE LOVE..KYRIEHUSNI-3.35AM

LA TAHZAN..

satu ari ni mmg kyrie tak tentu arah.. kerja pun kyrie tak dpt fokus.but when time to work..it has to be firm..

secepat buleh nk balik teratak opah b4 maghrib..alhamdulillah.. get a news from my cousin ..so lovely.x sabar nk bgtau.But then..im in a mess AGAIN..rasa cam nk meletop biler dpt msg tu.akhirnyer 2 beradik menangis jugak. n i cant stop tears teresak-teresak. i cant hiding anymore.im too sad.

i need u badly.. i need u so badly..really badly.plz...y u r not here when i need u around?!!!!where have u been? i cant stand anymore..n i have to mess 2 others people who i loved.THANKS!!

Ya Allah, hanya dgn mu aku mohon..insan kedil yg mmg byk kufur ngn MU ni..bnar2 perlukan pertolongan MU..kerana hanya Allah shj yg memilih yg terbaik untuk hambanyer.murah rezeki bkn semua org dapat.3 kali bukan semua org dapat.5kali bukan semua mampu.tapi ..

got kol 12.30am but i cant talk much...x sampai 5 minit plak tu.. i wish i can be there..really wish that i can be there.Ya Allah ya tuhanku..hanya pada MU ku sembah dan kumohon..apa-apa pun biarla dpn mata..smoga mereka sihat sentiasa dan dapat terus beramal utk MU,Ya-ALLAH..INsya-allah.

feelfree to pray my parent's wealth.. mekah terlalu sejuk..ramai jemaah haji yg kurang sihat..

p/s:-akhirnyer menangis lagik.. n sure esok kyriesepet akan trus menjadi sepet. headachela!! ur not alone kyrie..thanks guys..

Salam Aidil Adha + happy nu Yar!!

masa2 yg tertinggal 2006 di habiskan dgn 3 anak muda..yg  takde kg.locally+originally kl-rian.(kna cr org kg nih br raya sonok skit!!kalo ader sawah lagi bgs.cuma.. xnak toilet luar umah jer.)hehe.after keje (lucky me..i ran from inventory stokcontrol.."u.) met amie+ al mas min+tet..went together @ jln tar..ape lagik minum cendol la..(rindu gak ngn cendol bangi~razwan bile nk blanja cendol bangi)..dedulu suke tul kitorg lepak minum cendol n mkn laksa..siap tambah2 setiap sabtu.org yg br operate tu lps gian la sbb dah lama x mkn laksa.wey noma..kalo ko ader sure dah cukup corumkan??tula saper suruh balik sabah..ndak ada semua tu bah..sini sjak.ndak ada laksa kan?rindu kan masa tu..zaman nurma tembam.

lpk ngn tet..n tak sedar out of time.crazee..srius crazee..running to the star-depart maluri,thank GOD trus ader 56.fuih..kalo tak sure mam!!arrive umah bukak tv.. kompius.. pesal ader takbir nih? kol tet.. ya-Allah upenyer esok raya Hj...my goodness.aku tak sdar lgsng.this is the day dat i waited since a few months ago.so sorg.."J. wat 2 do "n. 1st day eva.mcm duk oversea la plak.xmsk aper2pun.yeah i ate spagheti je..n kmas umah since been a while out of teratak opah.home sweet home.

after operated nih.. mcm bigaula..byk ngt yg lupe..truk tul ksan aesthetic nih.padah nyer kene aesthetic for 8hrs.my performance bcome so slow..ish..kuat lupe.sad thing my simcard buleh ilang.it was with me since at the end of 2000.(rm 280 tu..hmm..how come kyrie)..thats y i dont eva wish any1 for the greetings.smua no ilang la.

hope 2007 will fire up my life n my dreams come tru..yuhoo.run 4 ur life..n thou steps to go..its juz the age,friend..:P.insya-allah.to all of u...Salam aidil adha + happy nu year...hope ur dreams come true.

regards,

kyriehusniothman

hari-hari itu..

4dec06... genap sebulan kyrie operate.become much more better.tp sengal ngn ngilu tu ader gakla.. nk naik bukit+naik tangga ..mintak maapjela..nasib baik tangga teratak opah tak cukup tinggi.mkn still pantang lagik.. i dont eat ayam kat umah tp kat opis mkn gak..hehe..bengkak dah surut,jahitan pun dah tanggal..mcm tali badminton wei.mengeliat takleh.bersin+batuk mmg sakit..kna tekan kat stiches tu.pastu kalo ketawa pun susah.itu belum bab urinat .nak tgk dunia baru pun x dapek ..takut glak bab keberkatan tu.

arini jugak 4dec06 gnap 7 years my nenna..makwe MeenaBteDollah meninggal dunia.AL-FATIHAH..arini jugak gnap 4dec06 gnap 3thn idup 'teratak opah'kembali bercahaya..

2days in a row im so happy.. smlm kyrie meet buddies..mcMed et aYONG.

LAMANYER x jumper nana..dr bln 6 @ 7 i guess..byknyer /mcm2 bende berlaku.hehe.wei lama wei.mereng tul.lagik happy biler dpt 'ter'jumpa n 'ter'shop kasut..syoknye..sampai 2 beli..huhu.. bkn sng nak jumper saiz 40 @ 41 tau!!! alang2 kalo dh  jumper knapa tak beli jer.. nike yg latest je yg tak smpat lagi..lagipun jln terhenjut-henjut2 lagikla.. nanti2la.. byk jugak yg kami 'nYoNyEt' kan..biarkan saja.

hidup+live+life..

then 4dec06 got called from 2persons yg tak diduga..huhu..

meet ijat laki bini (zuhai) kat klcc.they came all the way from tg malim.lepas settle kan keje then they konon nk ziarahla tu..huhu.thanks yer friends.

ijat-ijat.rakan vcdku..rakan hiestand,rakan leno,boleh thn la buat keje giler ngn

die.bykjugaygdiebantuwktukyriejatuh.zuhai yg dulu sgt cekeding ,dah besar dah!! sungguh tak sangka..sethn lebih tak jumper.yelah dah kawin syokla..

yeah i'm so happy.. sampai lani tersengih cam rooster jer..

bdway tinggal 18 ari je lagik..

MESTI ADER HIKMAH....lucky ur choosen!

Wah .. its completely thruth that I ve been lost from the virtual…

not only Lost dr net… lost dr kawan2 yg saya sayang…nuthing but thruth friends.. ive been lost bile hilang dr korg… I don’t know how other people feeling’s biler they don’t be friend /mingle with the others n can say buleh idup sendiri.. saya mmg tak ramai kawan… most of the closest friends r@friendster itself…(yelah budak 'nakal yg x cantik nih' mana ader org nk kwn ngn kiter..:(. ...) act ader ramai gak kawan yg lain tapi dorg takde friendster n don’t believe in this ‘cyber’ world. Saya rasa jauh.. jauh biler sometimes I need friend but they cant be wth me… dis sycho girl  was raised lonely…. With the parents who so buzy yelah nk cari nafkah for their beloved children… with the bro n sis who enjoyed stay @ hostel rather than home n I m d only 1 yg tinggal kat umah … yes that’s y I always feel like im d only children @ that spooky but lovely teratak opah…

dlm masa tak sampai 2 bln (1 bln 1/2) mcm2 benda ...the good things n stupids things happend in my life.. i always tell myself.. hidup manusia mmg tak sama jln nyer..semua hamba diduga OLEHNYA dgn mcm2 cara... as wat i mentioned ..ive been living in this freaking upside down for 25 years..saya mencari ISLAM..erti HIDUP ,Keberkatan...n keRedhaan..itu dah cukup biler saya dpt ketenangan tu ...i was totally messup ..n i that time i really cant cope with it...im stuck with it.. like my father told me .. im  such a fool to worry like i do... lost with friends.. lost from the real world..n lost from soul...i dont know with whom should i shared with... sbb semua org ader agenda sendiri...dan saya tak perlu nk beban kan diri saya dgn org lain... aper lagik agaknyer slps nih?.bukan saya menduga.@mencabar.. tp sbb semua hamba tu lemah..lagik2 saya...yaALLAH jauhkan aku dr kekufuran ...L.O.S.T.. when i see others peoples reallly enjoy wif their life for sure im sick of that...

BUT now i know...y i m d 1 who selected :).. every1 seems very happy with their raya...but me was choosen to have an operation for appendiks.. oh GOD..im celebrating raya @ hospital..raya ke10 wey.. cube ppikir skit.. even dedulu ader gak buat kelen pasal pnyakit nih kat cikgu,bukannyer mkn lemang n rendang byk pon..something yg aku langsung tak pernah pikir... i dont eat spicy food.every1 knows that.. tapi itula kan ...tetibe je... i thout food poisoning.. esok g opis met DR.. they assuming me got pre appendix..amik drh+ urin test but everything shows ok..but frm the clasical theories..symptom apendik mmg ader..so they refer me to HUKM..the pain kejap sakit +kejap tak for last 6 hours.after admit @ hukm they took my blood test again n showed 12(drh putih)..meaning that already bengkak sbb pg tadi range die 4.8 n it cnt be more than 10.if more that that meaning that APPENDIX..will be meletop!n i dont feel sad at all when i was admitted n declared that i got this 'disease'?... ALLAH tu maha KAYA... smua jerit perih yg aku rase masa last month n 1/2 really paid wif this sakit..aku redha sgt n really berserah.. waktu nih i realized that i have a wonderful people around me who really love n care about me even b4dis i did met wrong friend..im maybe not so lucky like others but the care ,the tenderness that friend n family gaved me really strengh me up.satu masa dulu .. ader sorg budak kecik yg really need attention from people bcoz she had inferiority complex ..expecially attention from her family... she always pray to be admitted @ hospital to c either her family love her so much or not...most of her goodfriend knws her dreams..:P. n I know my family loves me so much..n i cant compared with others. n im lucky to have a wonderful friends yg really can accept me the way im...guys from the bottom of my heart.. do appologize me for the things ive done.....n really hope..its will be the L.A.S.T..SO adik is ur dreams comes true?

* subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah 

di tepi kerinduanku

memandang hampa pada dunia

ku hanya orang biasa

tak lepas dari rasa kecewa

hanya padamu tempatku mengadu

pahit yg kini menyiksaku

aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

semua kan ada hikmahnya

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah 

angan yg membalut mimpi

dulu melukis nyanyian hati

ku hanya orang yg kalah

satukan hatiku yg terbelah

hanya padamu tempatku mengadu

pahit yg kini menyiksaku

aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

semua kan ada hikmahnya

p/s: b4 forgot..tahziah to SEHA... i was her die hard fan when i was kid especially the 'PERSAMAAN N TITI MENITI SONG..AND ALL THE MATAHARI'n from her this 'KYRIE's name was created...

act x baik lagik nih.. bengkakla plak..nk duk pun sakit..mklumla 7cm.mcm org bedah bersalin pun ader tp life must go on..trying n trying to fix it up..

ikhlas

M.e.wHO.l.o.V.e.S.a.tt.E.nT.ti.On..

MeniKmAti zAmaN rEMaja yg X CuKup AKU nIKmaTi...

  tadi lps balik keje, i took LRT from KLCC to Masjid JAMEK..gopoh2 skit..kalut2 skit,MISUNDERSTOOD AGAIN!between Teratak OPah 's Family.yeah we really bad in any bahasa n communication..once ur in dis family u will notice.received call dat they will meet me @ Mydin - nk beli brg g mkah.I heard  Mydin Maybank..went there.unfortunately  they waited me @ another Mydin ..mydin jln Tar also beside Maybank.wat the heck?! many times i asked .. Mydin jln tar or mydin dkt kolej F$#k tu ke? also opposite menara maybank tu?yealah..yg near maybank tu..JAWAPANNYA = i waited 4 them for almost an hour till heavy rain,kilat sabung menyabung!i rang ayah so many times but he didnt pick up d pon.. wahkalo awek kol cpat ajer :p.so next times throw je pon tu ayahanda tak pun baling kapala anjing lagik bagus.MMg Pissed off Giler! biler dpt tau slah tunggu tempat..ya ampun mcm baru sehari tinggal kat kl nih!hujan lebat mcm nk banjir.kl tau jelah kalo ujan sure banjir area situ.so wat else , lepak McDO jln hang lekiu tu la.
     LAST TIME I Was there @ the year of 2000 also on sept.wat a coincidence!HAVing lunch with My 'KECIK' Cik NUr + a friend from KLUANG...AFTER that,years by years HANYA lalu lalang saja dpn McD tu ..yelah while waiting for my 56@848 bus.SO 2day demi terpaksa n memaksa i bought McD bubur n teh panas( McMed plz i knw wat u thinking, i not 'grand' yet k!juz menjaga keshatan dan juge suara..hahaha) instead of i ddnt take my lunch yet so dine in je la situ.lately i was admited @ medical center sbb gastrik truk giler.mmg bengkok.stomach pain..even dpt consultation ngn DR Sagoo but till now x ok lagik.dahla RM81.60. mahal giler.nasib baik panel.kalo tak makin gemuk la aku.
    so then wat im try to 'mumble'kan yalah..This McD is my 'nice stupid playground'! selain other McDo la..since i was kid (dedulu kekecik xde tempat yg plg best kat kl nih xcept chowkit(its true!apa2 semua beli kat koperasi tu..n HANKYU JAYA!! My necklace was ditarik oleh peragut kt situ wen i was 6thn.)+Central Market(dedulu kat atas tu ader mcm 'pusat hiburan keluarga' ala yg tempat main game2 tu..so biler weekend je whole family gi situ)+DayaBumi-> mmg happeningla situ..sbb ader JJ ke Parkson ntah..xngatla.watelse...AmpangPark( i won BMX bycle kat situ ..juara KLtu!)+bile early 90's SG wang mula menyinar...GRANDIES@ LOT10..SYOKNYER...huwa teringat zaman dolu2.huhu+ YOHAN(THE MALL- tempat budak maxwell yer?)+ the weld+jln Bonus+malay streets+Jln TAR mmg mcm tu xcept Psr mlm yg dulu nyer buat kat atas jln besar jln tar tu di'moved'kan ke pedestrian..kalo tgk wayang pun kat Odeon or tmpat panggung wayang tamil tu jer..RM3.50 TU!!HAHA..seat die jgn citerla..apalagi agaknyer perubahan yg berlaku @klnih? 2thn @ muadzam shah pun biler blk kl dah rase lain.agaknye if i have to transfer to another region nanti mesti lagik lain..kalo dah rezeki nk buat camner kan Mcmed..
    so dis McD  MMG tempat lepak gua.yelah biler cuti sekolah kitorg ... me+along+angah will tunggu ayah @ mak kat situ.xpun kat CM..Xpun kat McD dayabumi yg dah tutup tu..then biler time skolah plak ..after klas B.A lepak situ ngn kekwan.lepas tuisyen pun lepak situ.lepas blk skolah pun situ.dedulu kalo kuar RM 10 pun cukup sehari..rm 0.50 @ rm 0.60 tambang bas.then bas naik harge 90 cen.McD RM 3-4.00 satu set.puas giler.siap ade balance nk blanja member tu.arini turn aku ..sok turn ko..hahaha..skang nih. semua dah berubah..semua harga dah naik. rokok pun arga naik.
    keadaan McD pun dah berubah even susun atur nyer mungkin sama..@ masa aku yg dah berubah?Mc D AS usual  buleh jadi tempat lepak,tempat ulang kaji+ dan tempat datingla agaknyer.. yg ramai pun teenagers je.budak skolah.No wonderla my dad alwitz ask and pissed me out ngn princessnirvana die yg sorg nih..asik lepak umah, tgk tv +enjoys DVD+VCD..sleep all day long till die pun naik myampah..hehe..i kept doing the same thing every week melainkan kalo ader hal..im imsomnia k.i cant sleep well while with 5 budak hitam A003.(''J.
    YEAH now im realized..yes i was ketinggalan utk menikmati my zmn ramaja. but wat the hell.. i was enjoyed the hell moment ayahanda!!yeah i enjoyed sleep too til hard4me to open my eyes..:s!!till now almost 4get aper yg aku dah buat 3 thn lps?where am i? n who am i that time? hmmm..
yeah wat done is done..wat past still the past..

' DONT CRY BECAUSE IT IS OVER.BUT SMILE BECOUSE ITS HAPPENED' ''J.

my dad kol lagik..nk pujukla tu konon..konon suruh stay situ nk fetch..dah slah bg info sampai gua bengang..papentah..mkn sambil kenyang sambil PANDANG cermin +perhatikan org sambil gelakkan org then time for burn out my KALEROL..jlnla saya seperti biasa seorang diri ke arah jln Tar Untuk meet my parents n SPEND my time ngn them as usual...BIASALA my mak edah ..she's looking 4 her 'hantaran' from my ayah..kalo xdpt sampai MIZK jadi DATIN (insya-ALLAH) PUN  x abis die citer pasal benda 'hantaran' tu..

AUGUST flashbackzz N ITs 20 AUGUST!

iTs August!!! August!! a month that full with desire...fhew!! exhausted of mopping around seems like putus cinter..hurt right?!dont want to feel it anymore.neva.hehe..enuff..24-7 like roller coster...wat2do.. i was born make u happy..so i have 2be honest seeking my faith...saya perlu jujur.its AUGUST again...it was 10 years ago.. lamanyer..6 chicky girls - aku+akmal(now mum wif a son)+farin+toda+haza+elly(pun dah kawin!)+haza- all d smckl frewnd so pissed of with this month.we promised not to make any 'BIG or occation day' on august..sbb TOYA's besday!! haha..bengong..at that time everything was disaster bcause its AUGUST!!everything went ruined n badly..mcm cursed..n awful!!haha.. lawak giler..mis zmn buruk itu. but PROMISE JUS PROMISE.

AUGUST 2000 dtg lagik..n it was 20 AUGUST!..hehe :).i broke the promised!i maked a 'good' occasion..it was good..really good.fun..enjoy n happy..i was really happy that time..really happy..n ajal maut di tgn tuhan.thanks for the happiness n the moment.im redha with it!

AUGUST 2002 - MESS WIF SOMETHING yg tertiber menyesakkan!! sorry sir! i dont understand at all aper yg u taught us!but Sir the way u chased me like im very spoil 1..stop chasing me.. im a ddecated student.tensen tau!HOPE aku xjadi cikgu macamnih..this is malaysia k,its NOT IRAQ!!wif coincident im not reveal up the story but it just trackbacks..takde kaitan ngn yg idop ngn mati..the power of4 started to 'pecah'..so messkan?!so sedihkan..but thats a life.we've been closed started 1999 when we just stepd in to the 'bangi' and the moments so jln mcm tu jer..our senior had betting yg dis 'freakyfrendwifdffntprsnlty' cant make any longer frend.thanks ALLAH till nw!

AUGUST2003- trying to b happy again..eventhough it was.then u flew away.as wat i told u ,i felt released after u quit!seems all the burden was harshing out of my head.but u really my dear friend .myeverdearesTfreind n i cant compared IT with ANYONEelse.ANYONE!.nice to know u NKS... I Kneew u felt same way too..im nt send u to the airport not bcose im mean but its better for us.H.U.R.T!

AUGUST2004- ITS summer..happiness bring us to life eventhou pehal plak tertibe aku kna campak ngn group yg menakutkan nih!! i have to mingle with them becouse im d 1 who left!!arghhhh.. satu malam xleh tido..nana!!i'm scared!!the bond become stronger!thanks..and a year passby..making more stronger.

AUGUST2005- got my scroll n started to lepak.i want to lepak!yes.sakitpalaxphm!lepak dgn membuat duit.a year past by?am i still the same person?still want to figure out who the 'devious' KHO? y she so inlovewif princessnirvana?is she still hypervexatious like 6years ago? pour moi, im still same person..still tyring to figure out about me,myself evn i knew im freacky weirdo!but it make me lookso sweeto!!hehe.i hv imgnefrends while i was child! i have strong 'qarin'.im the 1 who sometims not very stable in emotion  especially when people do judging n insulting.dont care eventhou its not pointed at me..but im so DEFENCES!

I HATE people who underestimated. i hate people who miscourage, always look down on people n always thinks he/she always the correct 1 evnthou its not!i hate people who ade' soBIG' hasad dengki!i cant  stand that.Iknw i was the victim n if u r so .plz get rid of me!!getlost!

BYDWAY AUGUST is not BAD n CRUEL at all!! it just the way u appreciated it! biasala sometimes happy sometims not! nama pun idop?!but it was happy,fun,enjoy,and cruel too..bak kata QUOTES:- walaupun die buat jahat kat kita, tapi kita tetap menerima dan memaafkannya sbb kiter sayang kat die..tp berpadala.JGN melampau sgt sblm waktunyer.so utk AUGUST2006- So far spjng 20 ari nih...mcm masam+masin+pahit+manis+gula+tensen!something jerk me out!smile..wat else2do.

p/S: to McMedSEPET@iena@NANA@yeNa :- special sympathy to u ..heard dat u had denggi? dats y i rang u..tp xleh lama.oit..shah alam byk nyamuk eh?? tula ..konyer kolam depan umah tu suruh mbsa cuci ..but i heard rumors u dated ngn ENGINEER? ahad lepas..takkan lps balik dating kna denggi kot?..kuang2..eh masuk ospital ker? n special gratitute 2u too.. apalah dosa KEMERDEKAAN KE 47 yer utk ko ngn aku..thanks ..hahaha

TO all NyOnYet Inc.. thanks for all the conceRRRn n carRRRRing sms.. my mak edah not admit yet!kna delay lak..baru tau tadi.pnat je g ospital.kalo tak sure aku bule msk ospital lagik.hehe.n it supposedly 20 AUGUST N 21ST!..maybe 20 AUGUST not sesuai at all..by the way pray for my mak edah's heatlh!merci beaucoup.. I LOVE U!yes i love u friend!SALAM ISRAK MIKRAJ!

WORDS

WORDS

Before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren

Before you argue about your dirty house; someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around

Life is a gift
Live it...
Enjoy it...
Celebrate it...
And fulfill it...LIFE'S SHORT..PLAY HARD!

JANGAN...

S07 not even in my playlist..bside exremely dislike their song xpesially si sephia tu.. wonder knpa rmai tul yg minat ngn dat song..all my cliques knw dat n  amie had asking me long time ago..Pourquoi vous détestez cette chanson ? c'est pertinent avec vous ? ..i said no..i just detest the song..dats all!
BUT..lately ..dis S07 song rapidly playd @flyfm n overplayed in my head..i was hitz.fm fans b4 but becz i do love fly guy  n all the seattle&britpop fresh songs rather than hiphop papentah ..here i go.N..dis hyper vexatious with cold-hearted girl finally distress her own feeling by sobbing her heart out..yeah..all d clique n TUA knw dat dis girl hardly express her reaction towards anything even sad stories..expessially by shed tears(my weaknesses..im sorry dat i cant easily sob..it juz  i cant)..n wat  4? wats dat 4?

IT IS 4 TIREDNESS,SLEEPINESS,EXHAUSTION & OVERTIREDNESS...over n over...keep come n go without notice.i'm tired actually.. serius SHIT n my head keep thinking in haste if i not jotting down here. kyrie dah penat. :s. n SERIOUS SHIT I DONT KNOW WAT IM DOING NOW!! GOSH!..it is 4 good?

i'm not saying im hopeless.. menerima kekalahan itu bukan perkara yg mudah krn kite juga ada ego.knp perlu ada kemenangan jika ada kekalahan?..sudah tentu semua mahu menang dan semua manusia perlu ade ego  krn itu membezakan thp seseorg manusia itu tapi kalo itu sudah kehendak yg maha ESA sapela kiter nk pertikaikanNYA.sudah tentu AL-MIGHTY ALLAH ada perancangan utk makhluknya.dis song keep playing in my head..oh my GOD!!its really haunting..xpesially the word and music really affect me..

aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat

mengapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
mengapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan

aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kusalurkan.. kemenanganku

kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku

rebahkan tanggungmu..lepaskan perlahan..kau akan mengerti semua..

YA!!! i wish to understand every SINGLE thing...

        " Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu.Dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu,padahal ia amat buruk bagimu,ALLAH mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui." Al-Baqarah,216

         "ALLAH memberikan hikmah kepada siapa yang dikehendaki-NYA.Dan barangsiapa yang diberi hikmah,sungguh telah diberi kebajikan yang banyak.Dan tidak ada yang dpt mengambil pelajaran kecuali orang-orang yang berakal" Al-Baqarah,ayat 269

Quant à moi..I tell myself that if things happened this way,because somewhere UP THERE was decided that way.. ''u.

 

 

Teratak Opah...26july

Happy 36^th  anniversary  for both mak n ayahanda.. may ALLAH bless both of u, us..

n teratak opah….percantuman dua individu  yang nyatanya berbeza dari segi keturunan,budaya,cara hidup,dialek, akhirnya menjadi '1' kerana adanya persefahaman?kasih sayang?jodoh?faith?Dan kemudian lahirla generasi-generasi hasil dr perkahwinan ini.. so arbitrary….

What is the marriage?

MARRIAGE is the state or relationship of being husband and wife. It is also known a wedding, the ceremony of becoming husband and wife…Who is a couple should not enter into marriage without thinking about it seriously!! THAT’S A COMMITMENT!!BIG COMMITMENT..HUGE..VERY HUGE..

the responsibility by Giving it the strong support that u promised…

Do you believe in marriage? Do u believe in commitment?don’t ever think it easy… people always said, marriage like gambling..(u guys ingat main tikam ,baling dadu

or just like poker?)you dont even know what the real things will happen..Just like a box of chocolate..u don’t even knw what real inside.. What you hv 2 know .. just play safe and always remember its involving 2 big heart..afterdat..byk lagi hati yg mau dijaga.. Once u in dis era..u really have 2 strive 4it..u d 1 who play d game..

   Beside its not assurance of happy life..Pencaturan dua kehendak yg menjadi 1 boleh menjadi lebih baik atau lebih buruk…

hmm.. perlu ada toleransi

kan

?memahami

kan

?

satu-satu.  .how they blooming their marriage without any problem??

fake!!problem asam garam kehidupan? Maybe for some people..

      untuk anak2 yang hidupnya dengan keluarga bermasalah…bercerai–berai?, ditinggal ayah? ayah ku kawin lagi? hehe..mak bapak asik gaduh?tak gheti nak berbaik? so nk depend yg mana?.emakku tinggalkan keluarga kerana ikut boyprend or x thn ngn bad habit bapak? Consequence meninggalkan kesan buruk for their anak2..akibatnya.. their anak2  afraid of marriage…..and don’t believe in marriage.. ME?  I just wish 2b wif some1 very wasatiah, very understanding, very fatherly…and very-very….

Nowdays we can c a lots of spinster yg mampu survive without marriage..

not because they r egoistic..but if marriage only intense to disaster.. so why should we allow it? PEOPLE don’t want to get marry if they want to get suffer..They want happiness.. Prosperity, loveliness n so on.or maybe they don’t find d suit 1….

just a superstitious 2 make life so meaningful J makin dalam

ur

‘pusat’ makin jauh

ur

jodoh..meaning dat

ur

soulmate org jauh..(asalnyer)..hahaha…make sense..kalo diikutkan ngn my family history….me again? Yeah…same like u folks!!! Lost…

In d other hand, kesian juga biler tgk parents have to selamatkan their perkahwinan demi anak2 sdgkan both of them x happy at all…as a child..u have to please

ur

parents..bkn sngkan? & parents should aware of their children’s satisfaction….

Im not blaming anybody..n im not sciencethodology follower but in dis case.. I c, I learn, I understand their situation.. Paranoid! ..s.o.r.y..dat true! And very hard to find few good man..and vice versa nowdays!!! not 2choosy..But choosy in make sensed.

perkahwinan utk melengkapkan kehendak dan kemahuan antara lelaki dan perempuan… and its doesn’t matter if you will marry at the late age.. 30?28?35?40?or in early age.. and how old r u? r u prepared yet for setlling down?as long as u happy & ready for it n no matter when…just bring it on!

Sekadar renungan.. 8 jenis lelaki di dunia..

Hanya 4 saja yg tinggal sbb??

1)      Lelaki baik lagi gila Dadah.

2)      Lelaki baik sudah masuk Penjara

3)      Lelaki baik gila Lelaki – so pity! Love so blind,right?

4)      Lelaki baik masuk Serenti – biler nk abis blaja ni?

Yang tinggal hanya

1)      lelaki  baik ..mmg baik..

2)      lelaki baik tp xde usha untuk naikkan taraf hidop

3)      lelaki baik yg so-so- suka bohong?suka tipu?oh yeah.. Sweet talkerla nih..nk mengena jer.

4)      lelaki baik.. TETAPI  SUAMI ORG?- nauzubillah…

Perempuan pun x terlepas sama gak- sometimes… I ADMIT it!mmg ujud.. sbb perangai buruk ada di mana2kan..iman tak dpt dpt diwarisi..yg baik utk yg baik.. dan kalo dah sudah disuratkan dengan yg menduga…itu faith!so pray 4 your success..

Back to d topic!!! Our (my siblings n I )wish dat .. my parent’s marriage will blooming eva after,not matter wat happened..n live happy eva after..even kiter tau semua ini kuasa ALLAH. ’KUNFAYAKUN’ bkn sng nk bina empayar nih for all these years.. Hopefully I can make it thou’ no matter with whom… insya-allah.. …n for those who read my humble mumbling freaking blog...pray for my mum’s health. She will have her 1^st eyes operation on 21^st august. Thank you..takut gak.. hope everything going smoothly..

Beside I cant denied dat I love this spooky but lovely ‘TERATAK OPAH’ S Family..cant imagine be alive w/o u..

p/s: al- fatihah to arwah HANI MOHSEIN.. ajal maut di tgn tuhan..:(.

-Sincerely-

Lots of like K.Y.R.I.E

BEAUTIFUL DAY!!

KERANA ALLAH ITU ADIL..MAKA mesti ada SEBAB utk setiap bende yg berlaku..8 thn lps...  I met 1 naive girl..SHE just a girl BUT she taught me of ADER HIKMAH DI SEBALIK KEJADIAN...n there must b a reason for single things..mesti ader RAHMAT DI SEBALIK DUGAAN..something that i neva think n fgure out b4

everytime i pray,x lupe doa jauhkan dr sbrg dugaan..kalo buleh mmg xnk-langsung, tp kerana Allah itu adilkan..mesti ader sbb,mesti ader hikmah..aper hikmahnyer?aper sbb nyer?still observing n seeking.. ONLY ALLAH KNOWS Y! living in dis upside down for almost 25 years still NT enuff to teach me...HOW,WHY??jgn cuba di tanyer knapa,mengapa.. tanye pada manusia mmg takde jawapannya ..inikan pulak tanyer pada langit tua?!! is dugaan mengajar kita??tepuk dada tanye iman!

ISLAM TAUGHT ME to sentiasa redha n IMAN.semua org idupnyer tak sama..ader yg bhgian idupnyer bhgia tak terkata..malah ader yg lain terlara..rezeki msg2..TERANIAYA,DIANAYA..mintak dijauhkan..tp jika itu yg dijadikan dugaan..redhala saja kerana dugaan didunia apala sgt kalo nk dicomparekan dgn susulan bhgian akhir nanti..cuma..tabah,taqwa dan redha saja yg tak pasti lagi...

dugaan hebat dlam mencari erti Islam itu sendiri mmg tak semua org dpat rase. alhamdulillah..tp apalagi utk dugaan kali ini?Astagafirullah al azim..masih tak cukup lagi agaknyer redha dan taqwa itu..bukan sekali jatuh ..berjatuh2..alhamdulillah..aku redha ALLAH.JIKA BENAR AKU ALPHA..tunjukkan jalan itu..

how i can survive at the time i was 12?15?17?big challegend on 01'-02'? inikan plak yg sekecil hama ...till now i still cant believd how i faced all d through disaster years..hehehe..damn...make me so inspired..haha..sjak itu selain tahmid,tahlil,zikir yg temankan aku since 6years ago  utk tidak memusingkan kepala aku..i also do need beautiful day's song by U2..to released out the tensed!!lagu penenang lebih baik dr makan ubat penenang..kalo ubat penenang  like doa xpa..kalo pil kuda..truk plak nanti berhorse power..cukup2la addicted..its over my head!!i do like this song very2 much.. n it always be my favourite even dah tua,bongkok,rabun makin kronik.(nauzubillah),bercucu (aderker nanti?!hehe-insya-Allah)tp im who im.

here my meaningful lovely song.my fav eva after!!

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There's no room
No space to rent in this town

You're out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you're not moving anywhere

You thought you'd found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you

It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
It's a beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

        What you don't have you don't need it now
        What you don't know you can feel it somehow
        What you don't have you don't need it now
        Don't need it now
        Was a beautiful day

c d last paraghraph...

aper yg kamu xde skng nih ..bende yg kamu tak perlukan .. n kdg2 kiter akan dapat bende yg kiter sendiri tak pnah tau

- as usual im not good in any bahasa..malay 6 masa skolah dulu..(trialla)

yer...A.L.H.A.M.D.U.L.I.L.L.A.H krn aku msih lagik muslim.SYUKUR

JULAI YG RAPAT!

H.E.R.E. special JULY!!

Julai datang lagik!!! as i told im surrndng wif anak2 julai.. so special besday wishes to all anak2 JULAI's fwend!! HAPPY BESDAY .. 4th July- -akmal (SMC,kl dearest frend!!-byk help aku wkt aku 'lost' zmn muda2 dulu) hope ur wishes come true..congrats 4d baby boy!!b a good hotchie mama k!! -huda(my adik roomate yg sama2 giler main mercun sampai kantoi) strive ur best in ur study,sis!!i knw ur hassler.. 5th July Nana putih a.k.a Nanaka2- all d best in ur life...such a tabah girl!! 13 July - Fe-G(smc's frend)..biler ko nk balik kl nih? janji nk blanja aku..haha 14th jUly- ghindu kat ko mok aka Kas appy becoming besday..kawinjela ngn norly tu.kan sng.. 17th July- Big bro Amat Grimlock..bz btul ko skang nih..!! 31 July- kekawan rapat aku!! btul! Wat so beauty wif 31st july? quite weirdo YER wen closely frend was born on dis day..n same year!! *Raja Faraa D x-presh!..oldschool rowker zmn kecik2..miss damn old memories..miss old d sarcasticz world!!miss old damn school...haha..hate cikgu azman?4sure..bebeh *FARIN- (SMC,kl dearest frend..rapat!!lots memories we gaind.wishng u all best in ur life!) *LEZA_kru?goodjob2 ok! haha..terima kasih krn mngajar aku mkn tempe..haha..smoga dpt baby cpat2. *NURKHAIRIAH - my everdearest sis,frend wat else??true friendship is priceless n so rare..thank u!!-heroin citer tamil mmg kene letak akhir2!!i2 sbb i alwitz put ur name wkt last..:). to else yg clbrate besday on JULY..yg tdk disenarai.. also appy besday..smoga diberkati n dirahmati Allah! saja bg awal..takut aku tak sempat.. bye!!

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cukup sabarkah anda selama ini? cukup tabahkah anda selama ini?masih kuat lagi ker semangat anda seperti azam awal tahun? I neva imagined that i will be in this situation... really.. yearlah quite surprising when i do tell people who am i right now.. is it weird? am i peculiar girl? i dont know..

for past few months i neva discover myself dat i will BE as tough as now.people know me as joyful and playful girl N quite strict at times..yes im still.. just i quite surprising dat im become more patience.. yeah .. maybe ALLAH suits me with this job to build my kesabaran.. n i neva knw dat i have full of 360 degree's patience.hmm...sabar separuh dr iman.. sabarnye aku..hehe..yeah sabar. keje ngn kilang, keje ngn contarctor pun tak sama rasanyer..

Biler berada si salah sebuah kolej *tut* di KL.. it reminds me of My oldies Uni.. serious $h*t i miss this old college.. i miss my old memories..miss my old friends,foes..haha..miss my kedai kuning so much.. CC BOB!! ARGHHHH.. MISS dat pasar malam.. miss my cd cetak rompak 's suppliers.. oh my GOD.. help me!!! i wish to go there ..mesti.. im so happy that time..

gazing at the mirror ...looking at them ..now i understand how big this responsibility is put on 'mymind'...how about my shoulders?yeah,it is. how i control myself to interact and be front with them.. i always remember one of my best lecturers told us.. 'GUYS... U HAVE TO RESPECT YOUR STUDY'S PLACE..no matter di mana.... no matter who u r.. no matter u bercouple ker, tak ker.. but the important thing is U HAVE TO RESPECT YOUR STUDY'S PLACE.baru ader berkat..there's alot of respects.what kind of respects? tanyer diri sendiri..mungkin sebab kekunoan aku tu.. hampeh2 aku pun 'otak' aku yg beribu2 neutron nih masih berfungsi dgn elok lagik...alhamdulillah..

so sadly to c kemunduran org melayu yang semakin mundur.. terbelakang nyer kaum yg aku wakilkan biler aku fills the forms even melayu bukannya aku...for sure bumiputerala aku.

MMg mendap dan ketinggalanlah jika masih di perap itu.dan biler mula menerima sesuatu perubahan .. dont be too overjoyed or overshocked sampai 'cultureshock'..pedihnyer mata melihat satu bende suci yg tibe2 kusam,busuk dan kusut menyemakkan mata..berpadala..mencube?mmg patut.. sbb idup skali.. tp jgn overshadow and overexposed mcm takde org lagik gempak dr kamu.. aper la yg gempaknyer kalo cukup berfashion,cukup berstylist even beli dr PS(yg penting cantik),dengan rambut bertempek perang (nk colour rambut pegila jumpa hairstylist yg recommended) TETAPI...belajar pun tunggang langgang..baca,faham,tulis,cakap ENGLISH satu bende pun taktahu..kalo betul nk apply modern style..be frank dgn semua..MAHATHIR KATA MELAYU MUDAH LUPA..TEPUK DADA SAMPAI MATI..JAWAPAN TETAP KAT KAMU..:).